Just finished an hour and a half of Vinyasa sequence. I practiced the Firefly (Tittibhasana) today. My hands were pressing firmly into the ground, My hips lowered, my hamstrings were pressing against my arms. I pressed my feet together in front of me (My legs aren’t ready to open outward yet) and I held for about three breaths. It was good. I had to jump back onto my feet to keep from falling onto my bum but it was good. My stomach was active; the abs were clenching.
I want to be graceful. I want to be strong and open, and I want my body to do as I tell it to do. I want control. There are so many things that frustrate me, scare me and make me angry(troubles with a relative, The government secretly agreeing about Trans-Pacific Partnership etc.). Those things, for the most part, are separate from me; I didn’t ask for them. But when I’m on the mat that is my time to take myself back, listen to myself and know who I am. The control is all mine